I knew without a doubt that something extraordinary had happened. I got up and went to the grocery store. I wasn't worried about crying or not being in control. Somehow, I knew I was out of control' now, and God was in charge of my life.
That night my husband Bill came home carrying a 12 pack of beer. Drinking beer and watching TV was the way Bill was trying to handle Todd's death. I remember greeting him at the door. I was excited to tell him what had happened to me. I don't recall what I said, but it went something like this. "Bill, I had the most awesome experience today. I can't explain it, but I gave my life and Todd to the Lord. I know God is going to bring something wonderful out of Todd's death, and He's going to use me to do it. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to do. But nothing or no one, including you, is going to stand in my way."
I knew from reading stories about people who had given God total control over their lives that He could and would do some unbelievable things. I was ready for this new adventure of trusting God and giving Him control over my life.
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